Friday, January 21, 2011

what I mean is....

"Maybe later" means Never call me
"I am okay.." means no I am not okay

"I hate you" could mean I love you

"don't bother" means please will you

..the above are few examples of when we say what we really do not mean...'we' most people do this on regular, when we don't want to admit something or when we don't want to tell truth because it might hurt someone's feelings. Whatever reasons we do this... 'saying what we don't mean' for doesn't matter; most times than not the other person we are engaging in dialect with can recognize that we are saying what we don't mean.

But, what if you could NOT recognize how a person was feeling without asking? or what someone meant when they said something else?..that could be very frustrating..would it not?

Well 3 out of 10,000 people and more males than females are diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome (AS), which is a form of Autistic Spectrum Disorder, however it a high functioning autism.

This means that compared to other forms of autism this individual leads a highly functional life

The 'illness' for lack of a better word mainly affects the social skills of the individual. At many times the individual does not know how to interact in social gathering, thus they avoid them all together. Also as stated earlier the individual does not know what others are thinking without asking which can cause a great sense of awkwardness or difficulty if others are not aware of the individuals situation.

Interestingly enough most individuals who have AS are very intelligent and can sometimes become obsessive about their hobbies.

Like all blogs something had triggered this topic, and for this blog I am thankful to the movie 'Adam' staring Hugh Dancy "Adam, a lonely man with Asperger's Syndrome, develops a relationship with his upstairs neighbor, Beth."

A must see if you enjoy such movies as 'Sam I am' and 'A Beautiful Mind' ......

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I cant remember.....

'I cant remember' a simple phrase we all say at least a few times a week, maybe even a few times a day for those of us are less attentive to the world around us.

Although we may all know what it feels like not to remember a birthday, an appointment or even a name; but do any of us know what its like to not remember the name or face of a family member or beloved friend? or how to perform our activities of daily living such bathing, cooking or using the bathroom?

According to the Alzheimer's Society; Alzheimer's Disease is a "progressive, degenerative disease of the brain, which causes thinking and memory to become seriously impaired". Sadly enough 1 in 11 Canadians over the age of 65 are currently diagnosed with this unforgiving disease, and even worse 71,000 Canadians under the age of 65 are affected. Keeping in mind the Canadian population, that is too many people affected. The American population is much larger than ours and thus 5 MILLION Americans are currently affected by this disease, keeping in mind the amount of individuals who are yet to be diagnosed.

Now, all this information is important but why I chose to blog about this disease as compared to any other illness is that it hits..a little too close to home. This topic came to me as I read a new article in the New York times in which the Food and Drug Administration of the United States has approved a new diagnostic tool for Alzheimer's. The tool is a 'bran scan' that will detect the plaques in the brain that are used to make the Alzheimer diagnosis. The article also mentions that it is the plaques that form, that cause the memory loss in the individual.

So what exactly does this new diagnostic tool mean for patients with Alzheimer's or who have been deemed Alzheimer query? well to be frank, I don't think it means too much for those who will be diagnosed, the only real benefit is early diagnosis which normally in many illnesses means a better prognosis. However due to the lack of treatment for this illness the benfit is still yet to be discovered.

What it does make a difference in is that because this illness can compromise the safety of the individual, for example the individual maybe living alone in which they will have to prepare food for themselves, memory loss during this time can lead to accidents. However with early diagnosis the individual can make living arrangements where their safety won't be as compromised.

Now coming back to the issue of why I am writing this blog is that unfortunately my maternal grandfather is currently suffering from this illness. My grandfather who currently resides in Somalia is being looked after by his daughters and sons (my aunts and uncles). For many years before his Alzheimer's he had been stating that his daughter (my mother) would be coming to see him soon. This summer 17 years after we came to Canada, my mother, brother and I received the opportunity to visit my grandfather. An opportunity that I am glad we were blessed to receive but unfortunately seemed a little too late, as my grandfather did not know who my brother and I were even after we stated who we were the children of..but worse than not recognizing my brother and I he could not recognize or acknowledge who my mother was.
My uncle jokingly reassured us that it was nothing personal that it was very seldom he recognized him despite that fact he stays with most nights.

This reckless disease is a terminal one, meaning that eventually it will cause mortality of the individual. This brings me on the note that there once was a time that mental illnesses were not considered a 'real illnesses', it was believed that it had to be physical. But as you can see here what once starts off a mental illness cause the brain to deteriorate thus triggering many physical illness and finally death.

To end this rather long blog, Alzheimer's is an illness that is frustrating and unbearable not only on the individual suffering from it, but also the caregivers of these individuals. Even worse than the disease it self is the fact that it is genetic!! I pray in this case it doesn't follow through!

-NurseNazz-

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

twitter

okay so here we are 3 yrs later and ask me if I knew I even had a blog??
Nope! well I knew I guess at one point but then I completely forgot I even created this and now I can actually remember sitting in that library of St.Kevin Catholic School watching the clock in the right hand corner of the screen as I typed during the Lunch hour as I could not eat as I was fasting!
-Now lets get back to the topic at hand ..twitter which is what lead me to my own blog in the first place...I clicked on a tweet that Aisha had about being too Muslim...and low and be hold here I am...funny how I was just thinking that I want to create a blog ..remembering that I had done it before but couldn't remember when...
So twitter...another social networking system created to feed individuals and their narcissistic selves. And no one can deny how narcissistic social networking systems have made us..me included.
Jus think starting with FB we sign on..why? cause we want to know whats going on in others lives...or is it more like to see who wrote on our walls who commented on our photos who posted a photo of us...or simply to say to check our notification if you will.
Fb is all about how many friends you have..but really can I say that all almost 400 ppl on my page are really my friends? I think we need to review the term friend.
Here are 4 similar but different definitions of the world
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter
3. a member of the same nation, party
4.a person who is on good terms with another

now I cant say any of these definitions fits all 400 people of my 'friends' list...in fact I can say maybe a maximum of 25 people fit all these definitions. But then again...who I am or how society views me is dependent on the size of my friends list..?? I say thats just plain redunculous
Now TWITTER...I believe takes the crown in creating a narcissistic society! see its not about sharing my photo albums or sign up for a cause ..but its just a way for your 'followers' to know where you are at all times. Truth be told I dont think individuals need to know where they each are at all times of the day...it has come to the extremes of me having to stop conversing with a friend about her day because she had tweeted her every action that I knew what she had done that weekend.....
We are so dependent on these networking systems that we have forgotten how to communicate face to face...but that takes me in a whole new zone..which unfortunately I do not have time for...as I must play driver...until nxt time
NurseNazz...n yes thats my twitter name :)